The Pursuit of Happyness

Oh yeah, I have seen that movie! I nearly cried at the end. ~ your thoughts exactly.

I am sorry for being a plagiarist for the title... I couldn't come up with a better name for my latest musings.

Ever since I was a little kid, so I saw in the numerous photo albums of my childhood, I have had the urgency to smile and laugh, like all the time. Even as a one year old, my broad smile and the set of baby white teeth is evident in all of them. The only thing I remember from my childhood was going to see my little sister lying in the incubator, crying the moment she laid her eyes on me.

My very first happy memory.

To make others laugh is the best service one can do in a lifetime. I am an agnostic by faith and an engineer by profession, so best I put it this way: "Every action has an equal and opposite reaction" ~ if you get the gist.

There were times in my schooldays when I used to feel low: I would whip out the keys of my motorcycle and go on a little ride; just to gather my thoughts. As the wind swept my head clear of all anxieties, I felt happy. This is the closest, I thought, that I would ever get to be a Superman.

Though I wouldn't say that music always makes me feel happy, it does elucidate: I can very well snuggle up in the depths of my music, while it is busy carving it's everlasting effects on my brain. In this lifetime, I am sure; I won't be able to live without it.

Spending time with a dear friend of mine, who is now working his life off himself. We sometimes used to be off our rocker, getting to the point that we both skipped a final exam of our graduation, just because we didn't feel like sitting and studying. Even though those days will never come back, brother, the memories will always live on.

And then I found love. Or rather, it found me. This was a new feeling for me, being provided by my better-half. For the first time in my life, I felt happy without asking myself the question - 'whatsinit4me?' I was not making others happy, someone else was doing that to me. I felt elated, overjoyed, on-top-of-the-world and all other adjectives you can think about. To this day, I am in doubt, whether I was ever able to reciprocate the same.

Even though you may say I have many happy memories to live by, if someone asks me to conjure up a Patronus, I would fail miserably at it.

I will eventually find myself in the form of a little girl. I would see my smile and her eyes in a third being, purest of both.

In her, I will find peace and contentment. In her, my Pursuit of Happyness will have a new beginning.